Loss

I lost it at the end. I've been binge eating for what feels like weeks. I have a vacation coming up, so I know starting over right now is a loss.

I was going to graph my results for the 90 day challenge, but, though I got most of the way through it, I can't face it. I ate way too many calories, every day.

I'm replanning for the the second week of October. Plans to come.

Moderate plans.

Progressive plans.

Day 76 - 78 - Labor Day weekend

Saturday, Day 76
2587 calories.

Sunday, Day 77
3977 calories.

Monday, Day 78
3107 calories.

Labor Day weekend, a baseball game, and eating out. Any of those one would have been enough to knock my diet for a loop. Add all three. And. Well. The evidence is above.

I've reverted to eating all the junk at all the times, whenever the junk craving hits. Bad me.

I have no idea what to make of this, or what to do about it.

Still keeping track of my 90 days. I'm scared to see what my summary shows about me.

And then I'll regroup and make some decisions.

I guess this thing will show what my habits are. At least then I'll KNOW what my habits are. I'll be able to stare at them.

This heat! No exercise in heat!

Bad me.

Day 74 - 75 - I'M A JOKE!

Thursday, Day 74 - 2135 calories

Friday, Day 75 - 2437 calories.

As the title says, what a joke am I. You know how I was supposed to double up on my yoga exercises yesterday and today? Yeah, well, did not happen.

I did, however, come across some rad low impact Asian exercise routines. I'll post them when I do them. The woman has a whole string of them, focused on slightly different body shapes, and I'm stoked.

At this point there is no way I will be finishing 30 Days of Yoga before my 90 days is up, but that's okay. I'm still going to keep doing it. The benefit of 30 Days of Yoga is that it exposes you to different forms of yoga. It's useful. It's educational. And the woman has a sense of humor. Very helpful.

My side planks a few days were pitiful, though, something to work on. Something I can measure. My elbow shook like a leaf in a strong gale when I tried them, both sides. My lowers into upward dog and cobra are getting smoother. And I know I mentioned that my back leg muscles cringe if I don't move into table before moving from cobra/upward dog into downward dog.

Tangible goals are useful.

NEW PERSPECTIVE ON 90 DAYS. AGAIN.

A catalogue of my habits without much effort. Haha. Much effort. Oh, I'm trying. Just, then I get cravings. And then I eat coffeehouse goodies while I got my antioxidant rich green tea. Mmmm. I do love green tea.

I'm going to finish out the 90 days. Doing my best of bests. I have a lot going on right now. And then maybe I'll do targeted mini segments. Intense 1-2 week periods, with less intense but still productive rest periods. They say it's better to trick you metabolism by mixing it up anyway, right?

Day 73 - 17 Days to Go

1646 calories.

I did more yoga today! I'm so glad! I really want to finish 30 days of yoga at the same time as my 90 day challenge, so I'm going to try to double up on the days when the yoga challenge video is shorter.

I did Day 7 - Total Body Yoga today. About 30 minutes. I COULD NOT DO the side planks. My arms are too weak, and I get pain in the back of my legs if I try to go straight from cobra or upward dog to downward dog, so I have to move through to my knees first. My front leg starts shaking after doing the triangles and moving back into warrior poses, the stretch/strength training is that good. It's definitely challenging.

Day 8 and 9 are both about 25 minutes, so I think I'm going to have to try to pair them with cardio, if I have it in me, though I could pair Day 9 and 10 together, since day 9 is 25 minutes and day 10 is 12. Day 11 is 27 minutes, so I might feasible be able to pair it with day 12 (17 minutes).

That schedules me for the next 3 days. Day 8 on Thursday, Day 74, Day 9 and 10 on Friday, Day 75, and Day 11 and 12 on Saturday, Day 76.

That would leave 18 Days of yoga to complete in 14 Days, which means definitely continuing to do yoga EVERY SINGLE DAY and doubling up on 4 more days. Which might be difficult, because looking at the list, the videos seem to stay longer and more difficult from this point forward. I could also extend my 90 day challenge until the end of 30 days of yoga, and then summarize from there. I doubt that I'll have the yoga courage to double up on all these videos, so maybe I'll keep in mind that if I want to finish the challenge within  my 90 day challenge, I can allow myself to extend the 90 day challenge by a week max if I'm keeping up with the yoga videos.

Day 72 - Could Be Worse

This sure would be easier if I didn't know too few calories causes weight gain, too. Then I could just skip meals. Right?

1850 calories and no exercise. At least it's at my original maintenance goal from the beginning of this shebang. Maybe I'll make up for it by keeping my calories low one day this weekend. Maybe. Weekends are hard.

Day 71 - Homestretch

19 days before my first 90 day challenge is over. Let's look at it this way. At least I'm still counting days. That's a challenge all in and of itself.

The quality of those days, however, has not been stunning.

For the next two weeks I am going to do this thing! 1200 calories during the week, 1800 calories on the weekends. Give myself a little wiggle room.

And Monday.... drum roll.... 1476ish calories. Not quite 1200, but pretty close considering it's me we're talking about. A good Monday to look at.

Day 5 FEEL ALIVE FLOW - 30 Days of Yoga

And Day 6 SIX PACK ABS - 30 Days of Yoga

30 minutes of yoga! Those triangles in FEEL ALIVE definitely burned my forward legs, and those ab isolations felt nice, too. Could really feel the individual areas of the abs, and I wasn't even doing the moves very well!

And my favorite standby, workout dancing in the nineties, Cardio Dance Blast by Crunch. Had to bring it back. Sweaty, sweaty, sweaty! Does that mean it's good or that I'm out of shape?

Also! It's laundry day and I used all of my workout gear for the week! I think that's good!