Carbs (Yes, CARBS!)

My biggest realization this year has been how much I fucking missed carbs. For the entirety of this year (which is just past half over), I worked a very physical job. Meaning... I had no time to cook, barely enough time to sleep, limited work/life balance, and was constantly pulling muscles.

And I was burning all the calories, so ate anything I wanted, and still lost weight. So many sandwiches, so much pizza, quick pasta dishes, whatever I could eat on the go out of a gas station.

We've been over the fact that I've been focused on losing weight for a loooong time now. The best thing that could have happened at this point in the journey, though?

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Well, that six month derailment.

I had been living on a very restrictive diet. The lack of time and excessive calorie burn let me experience foods I had forgotten I loved.

For the longest time, I was obsessed with eating less than 100g of carbs a day. Never really went that well. I constantly had massive anxiety about it, felt like a shit person when I went over (which was more often than not), and did a lot of carb bingeing, especially if I was already over for the day.

On the flip side, though I'm only nominally doing any kind of diet counting right now, making carbs "allowed" has massively cut down on the bingeing. 

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Carb counting has it's place, for sure. You can't get all your nutrients from pasta. Macros are a thing, and a balanced diet is, well, you know, healthy.

And after killing myself trying to adhere to fad diets, the anxiety of completely failing to meet daily food goals, all I want to do is eat.... eeevverythhhiiiing.....

While still maintaining my weight. It's a work in progress.....

Luckily, I love vegetables and cooking!

So, while currently trying to curb my carb intake, I do not intend to curb it as severely as I once did. For me, denial leads to anxiety and bingeing, so much better to work out a new solution.